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𝐄𝐮𝐥𝐚 𝐋𝐚𝐰𝐫𝐞𝐧𝐜𝐞 ([personal profile] vergeltung) wrote2022-08-22 01:55 am

𝐎𝐩𝐞𝐧 𝐩𝐨𝐬𝐭

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[personal profile] dawnbreaked 2022-11-12 03:59 pm (UTC)(link)
He would at least. There's things I'm keeping for him too secret, though he has far more of mine currently.

(Between the vigilante antics and really his other ventures in life from said antics. Though he's glad he survived this long with his help even if Diluc himself won't admit it or anything; the thoughts were at least kept at bay enough by their current conversation. That and really the feeling of her trying to make sure with her own resonance that he didn't near overheat again.

As horrified as he'd normally be, Kaeya is good at this.

He wouldn't judge them which also helps, he knows his brother well enough to say that much among other things. It's enough that he might notice but he can't say that he hates it as much. Perhaps the teasing would be what he dislikes but that's about it since Kaeya does take every chance to make him squirm unfortunately.

Second thought maybe he is worried a little.)


Being on the receiving end of his remarks due to it is the cost however.

(Though he did have the same thought lingering... with a quick reminder to himself that if they ever did come out about it that he'd prefer to not have it be by Kaeya or Amber's mouth's doing it.)
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[personal profile] dawnbreaked 2022-11-12 04:56 pm (UTC)(link)
(That... did for a brief moment shut him down mentally.

Really he feels the same way about it being worthwhile to deal with the remarks with her being the reason he's suffering through it; he's dealt with worse from Kaeya before anyway.

It couldn't stop his cheeks from getting near as red as his hair with her tone however, it especially couldn't stop him from near wondering where that came from even as he does lean in for a brief kiss of his own in response.)


... I can I think. Maybe, depends on what someone as beautiful as you are might want.

(He's trying to channel him too sounds like in his own way, low with his already deep voice before he couldn't keep at it and just shook his head grinning. Gods, he felt like he needed a bath for trying to act like his brother briefly but he didn't mind it.

Teasing at Kaeya's expense when he's not there to defend himself isn't bad.)


Believe me, he drives me insane too. I've seen him when he's drunk after all.
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[personal profile] dawnbreaked 2022-11-13 03:58 am (UTC)(link)
... true, though I don't judge them. Then again the only few people who can say they've seen me drunk is Kaeya and Jean now; I mainly avoid it since personal preferences aside, I am a rather large lightweight.

(Thankfully he's not prone to judging over her partners for the night either; he's seen Kaeya's extensive attempts and 'dates' after all. Though he wouldn't mind if she did attempt to draw out of him more this side of him in general. At least for her eyes and ears alone, he doesn't just do this for anyone if he's honest.

Or really anyone before her.

Diluc however did keep his head down low during those times he was there mostly because he did think Eula could ironically do far better than some of his patrons. But the thoughts aside, he almost wondered if he should subject her to the kind of drunk he happens to be. Likely not. She might attempt to smite him since Kaeya has mentioned he gets far more clingy while calling it adorable.

He isn't certain if that's changed any.)


The only comment I'll give you for how terrible I am is that Kaeya said once that it was adorable watching me attempt to cling to him and Jean while I kept trying to fall asleep on him.

(Gods that's also embarrassing to admit. He isn't sure why but there is color back in his cheeks to a degree but without the previous heat for the time being. The lighthearted conversation seemingly helping his mind not travel to other places.

At least he's willing to give her embarrassing imagery of himself to work with despite himself for these moments.)
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[personal profile] dawnbreaked 2022-11-13 05:03 am (UTC)(link)
... if I did then it'd be for your eyes only, you know. (He doesn't just drink for anyone or at any time he might want to after all. The heat in his cheeks is growing though that's more at the kiss and her calling him 'cute' than anything else.)

But, don't be surprised if I'm I guess very touchy?

(For the time being there's her next comment to focus on. He's seen all of it, with the men, the women even. He always thought she didn't need to put herself down to going home with them but never understood why the thoughts struck, they rarely did with Kaeya unless the woman he chose was far more below his standards and that was more him wanting better for his brother.

Maybe he wanted better for her too.

Or maybe the attraction existed back then and he never once gave thought to it through his stubbornness.

Regardless, he did at least seem to still not judge her. It'd be hypocritical given Kaeya's own drunken antics; leaving really with any woman that seemed his type and interested often enough in him to go for a time. He's seen how Kaeya does it and has seen how he pursues often times Rosaria... though the latter case made him wonder if there's something else he's after from her.)


I did. (A small beat as he sighs.) Truthfully I'm not sure how easy it is to rile me up in that state however, I only know Kaeya said they also wouldn't let me out of sight. They didn't want someone to attempt to take advantage of it or me. (With how he is in a drunken state, he suspects it might not be difficult to get him riled up. His sleepiness likely came from other things, but, the problem is he's not certain if he'd stop with ease if he was worked up while inebriated to begin with.)
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[personal profile] dawnbreaked 2022-11-13 05:28 am (UTC)(link)
I doubt they wouldn't trust you anyway. Knowing them if they didn't, things would be different. Kaeya likely would just worry if it's in a public setting just as she would; however I'd rather if I'm going to drink with you for it to be I suppose more private, more personal.

(Which is about more trust than he'd ever give his admirers to begin with; he knows by now she does hate the thought of them all over her which is why he's not necessarily bringing up what the drunken admirers of his has done with attempting to get his attention. All of it a bigger disaster and mess than he'd like, often times making him recoil at the sight just about.

And why Kaeya in another reason took time aside to further educate him on bedroom behavior knowing Diluc had forced himself away from a fair amount of things. He didn't want him being used.

He hates to admit it but Kaeya cares really a lot more than he bothers to let on just as he himself does.)


Personally I never once felt comfortable with the idea of being drunk around them to begin with... not whenever I don't know what they're capable of and the fact that some of them might be sneakier than I'd like to deal with from strangers that think of me as a trophy.

(It's why for the time being with her tone shift, her relief, he's not necessarily minding letting down his guard to talk to her about this. To smile in his own case at her affections while letting her see some manner of fondness and affection from himself too.)
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[personal profile] dawnbreaked 2022-11-13 06:11 am (UTC)(link)
(Maybe he did notice a little.

Perhaps it's why he stops, perhaps it's why with some manner of voiceless concern his warm hand again cups her cheek. Should he tell her how he felt she could have done better? He's not certain. Some other time maybe. He doesn't press her to speak what's on her mind though he leans in close for her just as a small reminder he's fine enough distracting her within their limits.

Until later.

He's never been certain on how they could just sit there and treat her that way, he's always felt some form of annoyance about it since no matter her own reputation she didn't deserve that sort of treatment. Nor the shame or regret that followed it.

Even if it's unsaid by him he doesn't dislike how fierce she is, how strong she can be as a person no matter circumstances between them.

Even without him saying it he hopes she knows as he leans in again, another kiss, but this time his own emotions were leaking into it. His own worries about if she was okay back then that he never acted on out of his own stubbornness, his own thoughts that those patrons for daring using her own inebriation as an excuse no less was people he did not dare want in there.

He hopes she understands that or can see it in some form now; even if his aloofness may not be easy to bear or deal with.)
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[personal profile] dawnbreaked 2022-11-13 06:43 am (UTC)(link)
(He's not pushing it too far, even as he doesn't part for now. His arms held her closer; letting her stay with him like this for once. Letting her have more of his feelings than he ever knew he had toward all of it for her.

Maybe it's different than earlier, maybe it's not in the way he does this knowing perhaps she might not be thrilled and may move him further up on her list as she once told him too. Yet he couldn't help but do this; not whenever she was sinking again, not whenever some of this has always been things he could never bring himself to say to her. If he has to be a lifeline for now, in general, then letting out such things isn't always bad.

If she needs more of him despite a desire to wait... he thinks for once for her alone he'd make exceptions more than he ever thought he would. Something he never once thought he'd feel or think, something that part of him that argues is firmly against, yelling at him about before it's silenced by simply thoughts of her well being.

And really his own thoughts of how he should have maybe been more honest with her in the end.

Earlier even than just now.)
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[personal profile] dawnbreaked 2022-11-13 07:15 am (UTC)(link)
I know... (And yet, his own murmur of it is soft in response, breathless.) I... whenever I got to thinking of it... even after noticing that look on your face...

(There's a beat. He's trying to collect his thoughts, his emotions being so vivid on this weren't helping.)

... I thought to myself if I'm giving you all of me... even with the promise... even if it happens early despite our word given... I don't want to make you feel the way they likely did.

(And... he does trust her. It's difficult, his own softness and emotions were evident just as he finds himself unable to take his eyes off her. His hearts pounding, the heat wasn't unbearable but it's there too with her in his embrace. His issues with trust are always going to be there, but for once with all of it he feels as if he can genuinely trust her.

That's why he did kiss her the way he did no matter how conflicted he himself has been with his own distractions, his own feelings.)


... I didn't like seeing it either, the way they spoke to you and behaved. I didn't judge you, I judged them for doing that.

(Maybe not the full admission that she could have done better than them, but it's close enough to the complete truth since he did always feel that way with what they were doing.)
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[personal profile] dawnbreaked 2022-11-13 07:48 am (UTC)(link)
(Conflicting, confusing, even he wonders just what he was thinking saying this in their brief time apart. He could have blamed her for their words but he didn't. Drunk and fiery she was, he didn't judge her for her reactions, judge her for what she said, what she did even. He didn't find need of it; vicious cycle or not he always considered her the victim to their actions of provoking her as they saw fit when she were there.

It honestly made his blood boil nearly at the thought of them trying again in general when she's just there to see him.

Yet he's forcing himself to focus on her, the way she's grabbed on to him and really the way that they're both being a mess in a literal sense. Both of them uncertain on how to remotely feel or to speak of this even but he's not going to try and figure out things more knowing he's not in any shape to do it.

The thoughts soon enough at feeling her tug him closer at his half open vest fade, his lips against hers with the tenderness he had earlier. The fire filled tenderness he thinks he should have shown her originally but even that shortly faded by how close he has her in his arms, how close he is to her no less.

Gods above he's certain that whatever this is, he never thinks he can go back to how things once were between them.)
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[personal profile] dawnbreaked 2022-11-13 12:59 pm (UTC)(link)
(Reminding himself to be 'good' is a bit harder but manageable, his own breathing getting somewhat harsher with the breaks yet still warm enough throughout it. He's considering it somewhat lucky that he's not daring to move aside from near drowning with her in it. It almost makes him wonder how often it happened even if the thought for the time being is shelved currently.

Nothing that he'd dare ask anyway.

Seeing her like this didn't help much with his own attraction involving his old self, the side of him that he would have thought gone with how closed off he became in those three years resurfaced, felt foreign to him even as it came back to a degree.

He's still not certain how she did it but she did.

Whether it be they drown or not it isn't as if he didn't expect her vengeance for going this far to do something for a change. If anything Diluc was fully expecting after this to be in more trouble in her eyes; unfair or not perhaps to her, that's how he always has been. Beneath his stoicism that is knowing that some parts of him simply never faded away no matter how he thought himself. It all just seemed to be dormant.

The consequences can be dealt with later, whatever consequences she chooses to give him in the end.)
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[personal profile] dawnbreaked 2022-11-13 01:31 pm (UTC)(link)
(Thankfully he didn't press it further.

He's not moving beyond what he did even if the temptation is there, but no matter how much he couldn't help himself by acting on the feeling he didn't want to break that promise either. It's not something they made lightly though he did say he gave consent enough for it to happen; it's harder to think now without the temptation gnawing at him with his current thoughts.

Diluc hadn't expected to push her into a daze however.

That's part of why he isn't daring to move, holding her for the time being is enough no matter his thoughts or how much he feels he might want to. Something he never once thought he'd feel toward really anyone involving his current state much less his current thoughts of wondering what he's in for now.

He did want her too, a lot more badly than he ever would admit to anyone.

That's why he chooses for now to be silent as they pull together; his own breathing starting to get back to normal with some manner of softness still twinkling in those harsh scarlet flames he calls eyes. He won't dare mention anything for the time being knowing he may have perhaps earned whatever she's thinking of doing to him later.

By now anyway he's certain that if she does want some manner of vengeance that he'd expect it later to happen. If she chooses to take it on him.)
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[personal profile] dawnbreaked 2022-11-13 02:00 pm (UTC)(link)
... I'll take that as a compliment.

(As close to one as he can get at this point.

Holding her like this isn't bad to begin with as tempting as everything is, with his head for the time being near hers with how she's resting against his shoulder. There's no manner of complaints from him or no other comments after taking her thanks even and really her mention of him passing Amber suddenly.

He's not certain how far that pushes him but he likely is going to wind up on a different list is his current thought floating around on it with the rate he's gone up on her 'vengeance list'.

His warmth is still there. Not on the level as he'd have it were he to be pushed gradually past the point of no return but it is in fact there to wrap her up in it like this.

They both have in this evening dealt with more than expected with how their perspectives shifted; he's not sure on how he's going to keep things hidden involving his attraction but he'll figure out something. He thinks, he hopes anyway.)


... I'm not sure how much it eased or what time it is currently.

(Since he noticed the howl didn't seem as powerful as before. If anything he can prepare to head out soon and expect to be tired on shift at the Angel's Share later on if he doesn't manage to sleep any after all this and the trek down once he's done with his clean up.)

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