[ There's a second or two where a look of mortification crosses her face, her cheeks heating and a momentary panic in her eyes. ...if it eases the thoughts, he said, and she wonders: has he seen through her so easily? She hasn't once told him that kissing him shuts the thoughts up, and yet he's able toโ
Unless, she realizes, it's the same for him.
Her expression softens, something like curiosity replacing the panic, just for a moment before it in turn is replaced by her trademark scowl.
She's not angry, not like he fearsโ but she is annoyed.
...you're free to be selfish, he says, and once again it comes down to what she wants from him, what moves she is willing for them to make. Knowing she has his consent is one thing of course, but... ]
Let's make a deal. [ Her voice is quiet, but as sharp as the blade of her sword. ] I'll tell you what I want. But you have to tell me what you want too. Both of us are adult enough to say "no" if it's too much.
[ She doesn't just want acceptance. She wants him to want, too. Beyond that, thoughโ ]
We don't have to talk about tomorrow or anything after then, either. [ She still doesn't know what happens after this, after all, other than the fact that she'll be more of a fixture at Angel's Share, that somehow they've landed in "all" territory when they really should be in "nothing" territory, that she's going to see him againโ
(it would be nice too if the next time wasn't somewhere as horribly unaccommodating as this, but with the eyes of every Mondstadter on each of them for some reason or another, maybe they don't have much of a choice)
โRegardless of all that, though, now is clear to her. ]
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Unless, she realizes, it's the same for him.
Her expression softens, something like curiosity replacing the panic, just for a moment before it in turn is replaced by her trademark scowl.
She's not angry, not like he fearsโ but she is annoyed.
...you're free to be selfish, he says, and once again it comes down to what she wants from him, what moves she is willing for them to make. Knowing she has his consent is one thing of course, but... ]
Let's make a deal. [ Her voice is quiet, but as sharp as the blade of her sword. ] I'll tell you what I want. But you have to tell me what you want too. Both of us are adult enough to say "no" if it's too much.
[ She doesn't just want acceptance. She wants him to want, too. Beyond that, thoughโ ]
We don't have to talk about tomorrow or anything after then, either. [ She still doesn't know what happens after this, after all, other than the fact that she'll be more of a fixture at Angel's Share, that somehow they've landed in "all" territory when they really should be in "nothing" territory, that she's going to see him againโ
(it would be nice too if the next time wasn't somewhere as horribly unaccommodating as this, but with the eyes of every Mondstadter on each of them for some reason or another, maybe they don't have much of a choice)
โRegardless of all that, though, now is clear to her. ]
Is that... a deal you can agree to, Ragnvindr?
[ Last name terms again.
It's safer. ]