[ And just like that, the world gets turned on its head.
She's so busy being lost in her own thoughts that she barely registers what he's said until he's pulling away, and then the disappointment and regret is crowding too loud over everything, swarming her, paralyzingโ
It took her all of two seconds to drive him awayโ
Except he's shuffling to remove his coat, the bare skin of his forearms revealed despite the bite of the cold, and he looks uncomfortable for more than just that; honestly, he looks like she feels most of the time, like he wants to disappear. A feeling that, as her eyes trail over the vicious scars cut into his skin, she understands, even as her eyes widen in shock.
Weakness.
To be showing her this, he has toโ
A deep breath, her brain slowly catching up on the words spoken before he moved: ...don't think I can stop...leaning toward all for me...something only Kaeya knows.
Another vicious churn in her stomach, another knot tied and tested, her eyes trailing in silence over the scars before they look back up at him, searching the red flames of anger in his. The Fatui... the Abyss...
Vengeance.
It's a lot to take in, and far more than she can possibly speak to, more than she has any chance of finding words for. While he surely hasn't revealed everything to her, just as he said, enough of his personal mission has become so suddenly clear that his pain, his divorce from the Knights, his aloofness all in one moment make sense to her. ]
Diluc.
[ His name sounds strange, foreign on the tongue of someone used to calling him by his surname alone, and where teasing him over his famous nickname may have made her cringe, this only makes the knot of anxiety in her stomach tighten still more, stuns her lips back into silence so that when she reaches gloved hands to his forearms once more, landing this time on bare skin, there's nothing else to say.
Instead, she closes the gap between them once more, her mouth seeking his in a kiss surprisingly gentle. ]
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She's so busy being lost in her own thoughts that she barely registers what he's said until he's pulling away, and then the disappointment and regret is crowding too loud over everything, swarming her, paralyzingโ
It took her all of two seconds to drive him awayโ
Except he's shuffling to remove his coat, the bare skin of his forearms revealed despite the bite of the cold, and he looks uncomfortable for more than just that; honestly, he looks like she feels most of the time, like he wants to disappear. A feeling that, as her eyes trail over the vicious scars cut into his skin, she understands, even as her eyes widen in shock.
Weakness.
To be showing her this, he has toโ
A deep breath, her brain slowly catching up on the words spoken before he moved: ...don't think I can stop...leaning toward all for me...something only Kaeya knows.
Another vicious churn in her stomach, another knot tied and tested, her eyes trailing in silence over the scars before they look back up at him, searching the red flames of anger in his. The Fatui... the Abyss...
Vengeance.
It's a lot to take in, and far more than she can possibly speak to, more than she has any chance of finding words for. While he surely hasn't revealed everything to her, just as he said, enough of his personal mission has become so suddenly clear that his pain, his divorce from the Knights, his aloofness all in one moment make sense to her. ]
Diluc.
[ His name sounds strange, foreign on the tongue of someone used to calling him by his surname alone, and where teasing him over his famous nickname may have made her cringe, this only makes the knot of anxiety in her stomach tighten still more, stuns her lips back into silence so that when she reaches gloved hands to his forearms once more, landing this time on bare skin, there's nothing else to say.
Instead, she closes the gap between them once more, her mouth seeking his in a kiss surprisingly gentle. ]